Thursday, April 29, 2010

brief snapshot of the next few weeks

People always told me that these last few months in high school would be the fastest. I believed them, but I think I'm more of a believer now than ever before! These next few weeks are going to be the busiest ones of the year! Starting next week, I'll have something going on ALL the time. Afternoon/night practices for our schools variety show every day, shows thursday, friday and saturday, AP government test, MAJOR house cleaning, moving the sister back from college, final days of classes and award ceremonies....the list is endless!And while I don't think my schedule can take much more, I don't mind one bit.

There are some things that I'm getting very frustrated/anxious about however. I don't remember if I've mentioned this before, but I applied for a new job over the summer. It's a full time, $9.75 an hour clerk job out at the AFB. I really REALLY really want this job. I turned in the application at the beginning of March and we're not supposed to hear about it until the beginning of May, which is just around the corner!! Only problem - I have absolutely no idea how much time I'll be allowed to take off if I end up getting the job. There are some things I want to do, places I want to go.....deadlines are coming up and I don't even know if I'll be available. I'm losing patience....never a good thing!

Monday, April 26, 2010

around the corner

Two weeks. That's all there is. I can hardly believe it. I've spent most of my life the past four years in this building...learning new things, not just about school but about life too. I've waited for this time all during those four long years. I've wished over and over again to just skip ahead into life and arrive at graduation day. Well, today's not graduation day, but it's just around the corner.

I can't explain this feeling. Everything I'm used to will be different after graduation. I'm finally going to be in charge of my own life!! Absolutely anything can happen! That's what's most exciting! But at the same time, it will be a struggle. While it is my life and I'll get to make my own decisions, I cannot forget whose life I'm trying to live out day to day. I want my first instinct to be to pray and ask Him to reveal to me what He wants for me. I want to get close enough to hear Him whisper how much He loves me and what His will is for my life. I just need the self-discipline to do what I know I should.

Monday, April 19, 2010

P.R.O.M. ♥

Prom has come and gone and I still can't believe it. I guess it's just one of those things that you think about all year long....and then it sneaks up on you and before you know it, it's all over!....sorta like weddings I think. Except proms are less memorable.

I'll post a picture of me in my dress. With the help of my mom and sisters, we successfully accomplished the "Veronica Lake and Audrey Hepburn" look! The dance was a lot of fun. I turned down four different guys that wanted me for their date....but whatever! I didn't want to go with any of them, so me and my friend Ashley were a pair! We were apart of this big group that went to Applebees for dinner (haha!) and rode in an amazing limo to the Hawker Beeachcraft Activity Center. Then came afterpom until 3 am! My sister Jessica went with us to that....I'm still trying to catch up on sleep.

Needless to say, it was a great weekend! :)

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

"spend" time - don't "make" it

I cannot wait for my life to belong to me again and not my school. It seems like the closer I get to freedom (a.k.a. graduation) the busier and busier I get. Basically, school and church have consumed my schedule....mostly school. That's just wrong. I guess that's where I get so frustrated.

Why is it so hard to spend time with God? Nowadays, we've resorted to "making" time for God instead. Do we really believe that watching that TV episode, running those errands, or checking that facebook is really more important than takng 10 minutes out of the day for the Creator of life?? Our Savior?? Our Reason to live??

I'm not trying to sound like I have it all together. You're probably thinking to yourself, "If she's so serious about spending time with God everyday, then why is she blogging instead of going out and doing something about it?" Truth, is...I haven't had a quiet time with the Lord for the longest time. And I miss Him. I know He's there, but that closeness isn't there. How do you become good friends with someone? spend time with them.

From now on, I am going to spend time with the Lord at least 4 days a week. I'm telling you this because you are all my witnesses. I've made broken commitments just like this in the past - I'm determined to start over.